[ 5 ] the chaos
oh there was plenty. they don’t tell you how hard it is to push when you’re up against a brick wall and you’ve given your all and need to keep drawing from that bank. it’s hard to have an infinite supply. it’s hard to admit you need a break to recharge. that’s what i needed. i needed time to myself. typically writing helps when i’m enduring a hardship, but i was so uninspired the words wouldn’t form. it was hard putting things down in writing. maybe i didn’t want to remember.
[ 4 ] the changes
i’ve bounced around quite a bit in the last 9 months. newport beach to orlando to new york to boston to long beach. i’ve felt like quite the human ping pong ball. couple that with a 2500+ mile transcontinental commute and any time off felt like it was running away from me. packing and unpacking never gets any easier.
[ 3 ] marathon training
my first 26.2! i wanted to do so many more races in 2012 but knew i had to take it easy. it felt so good to come back strong after my injuries. more on that later.
[ 2 ] traveling abraod
puerto rico [kinda counts], philippines (manila & boracay), and japan (tokyo & izu), among many random days waking up and falling asleep in different states.
[ 1 ] picking up the pieces
2009 was the last time i truly felt like myself. i had my creative routine down and was so happy with what i was doing, and then it crumbled when i fell into a job with management that just wasn’t good for the soul. i stayed with it much longer than i should have, but i don’t regret a thing. the past 9 months have allowed me to get back into my old habits and it feels good to get back into the things that make me me. i want to write. i need to write. and so here i am, ending the hiatus.